Today I realized my sadness is slowly starting to level down. I don’t listen to the same old sad songs to help me get by like I used to. I don’t think the saddest thoughts that brought tears to my eyes daily anymore. Instead, I’m more eager to become myself again & rebuild my emotions. I want to have a smile on my face & not pretend I’m happy but actually genuinely be happy. I realized I am numb to the pain but also open to self love & self growth. My life is slowly starting to piece together once again. I am grateful for what you have given me.
I’m still angry & not quite ready to forgive. I know I need to heal, but I’m still processing everything that has happened. I’m accepting it temporarily but not permanently. I am trying to take the right steps towards acceptance & moving forward but I find it difficult to do so. Like they say, sometimes the correct decision is the toughest. Is it wrong to not yet be ready to close the chapter in your book that you thought was never going to end ?
I couldn’t keep fighting for the both of us. I knew it wasn’t right. I made the decision to let you go & move on. I hope you’re happy …because I’m done fighting…alone. You’re probably falling for the things you saw in me…in someone else. But that’s okay, wish you nothing short of greatness.
NYC always shows love. Thankful for every person that came out today. If we took a pic put this tag #RobHillSr so I can see it. I appreciate all of you!
So happy to have been a part of it ! Awesome show ☺️